Day 19: Your biggest regret in life.

I LOVE today’s topic… “Your biggest regret in life”. When I am done, you will understand why I love this one.

I have no regrets. None. Zero. Zilch. Nada.

Don’t get me wrong- I have made many mistakes in my life that have cost me dearly (emotionally, mentally, financially, etc.), but I wouldn’t trade them for anything in the world.

One, every mistake I have made has made me who I am today. I am stronger for every mistake I have made and I am most certainly smarter for it too!

Two, I would not be where I am with what I have. Let me explain this one a little more…

Anyone that knows me really well will probably ask me why I didn’t say my ex isn’t considered a regret. I was with my ex for two years on and off. He was emotionally abusive, verbally abusive, took me for everything I had, cheated on me multiple-numerous-hundreds of times (at one point he was able to name 16 girls before he forgot names). He was honestly the worst and the best thing to ever happen to me relationship wise.

When we first started dating, I was just shy of 19 and he was older than me (but much more immature and irresponsible). I was blinded by “love” and thought he was the one. I was blind. There is no other way to describe it besides dumb! I let him walk all over me, everyone warned me, but I could never see it until it was far, far, far too late.

After smarting up and catching him in the act more than once, I said forget it, I’m done. I had a hard time staying in the same locale as he was because I was still dumb and still talked to him, still loved him, blah, blah, blah. So when my best friend’s brother offered for us to move to Arizona and live with him, I jumped at the opportunity. It was the only way to keep myself away from him and all of his negativity (or so I thought).

Stupid me started talking to him again after we moved. 1700 miles away and that jerk still managed to say all the right things (like he always does). I let him come down and stay with us for two months. The worst part- while he was sleeping in my bed, he had a girl back home that he was texting and calling, AND he was hitting on the employees at my best friend’s work! (None of which I figured out until much later.)

None the less, he stayed with us down here for two months and the plan was that we were going to get engaged, I was going to move back home to live with him and that was our future. Fortunately for me, after he left, I smartened up a bit. We continued a long distance relationship that started fizzling and within a short time, I had met my current hubby.

While my ex is one of my biggest mistakes, I am fortunate to have gone through that mistake because I now have my hubby who I have been with for almost 8 years; married to for six years; have a beautiful 5 year old daughter; and a handsome 3 year old son. If it weren’t for my ex, I wouldn’t have moved to Arizona and I would have the life I have now. So… as much as I dislike him, I thank him.