Day 22: How have you changed in the past 2 years?

Hmmm… let me try to think what two years ago was! The year currently is 2011, so two years would be 2009… the end of 2009. WOW! Putting it down in writing really hits me that I have changed drastically in the past two years…

For starters, I am much more stable than I was two years ago. As most readers are aware, my grandfather completed suicide in May of 2009. By January of 2010, I was a lunatic. Honestly. I thought if I told anyone how I really felt, I would locked away in the looney bin. I wasn’t sleeping, I was writing a lot, I was experiencing massive anxiety… I was a hot mess (understatement). For nine months, I attended weekly counseling including trauma counseling. And, for the past two years, I have been medicated for my anxiety disorder. I can say I am much more stable since then.

I have grown from the above experience as well. I have taken a positive stance in suicide prevention, education and outreach.

I have grown emotionally as a personal as well and made realizations that I have had to come to terms with. Some came a little too late, but some came right on time!

So I guess when I initially think of the question, I didn’t think I had changed much, but I remember what I was like after my grandfather’s death and who I was before starting counseling. I have changed… for the better!