I am a woman with many different hats.
I am a wife of almost 8 years.
I am mommy to a 7 year old daughter, 5 year old son, and 3 month old daughter.
Which also means I am the mommy to a 2nd grader and Kindergartner come August.
I am a part time office manager.
I am a blogger.
I dabble in direct sales.
I am a Master’s level college student.
As you can see, my plate is incredibly full. I prefer it that way, normally. I like to keep busy. It keeps my mind occupied. But, sometimes, I like a break. I need a break.
Leaving school has been on my mind for a while for several reasons, but today it really hit me. (My anxiety has been a bit high as of late so I am much more hypersensitive to everything going on and around me.) I wrote out my pro’s and con’s, sat on it, discussed it with my husband, and we decided together that it would be best if I stopped attending school. I feel very anxious and emotional about my decision, but I know that once this decision is made, I will have so much weight lifted off of my shoulders.
I have been in college since September of 2007. I obtained my Associate’s degree in psychology in 2009 and my Bachelor’s degree in psychology in 2011. I have been attending my Master’s program since September of 2011, and still have enough classes to fill my schedule until November 2014 plus a one year unpaid internship.
For starters, when I signed up for my Master’s program, it wasn’t quite what I expected of the program and turned out to be something I didn’t want to do in the first place. But, I stuck with it because (a) I would get my Master’s (which is a big deal to me), (b) if I stayed in school I wouldn’t have to start repaying my student loans yet.
Two years into my program and I still know that this is not what I want to do.
Additionally, the thought of me having a “career” outside of the home is (a) something I am not sure I want and (b) if it is something I want, is on hold for the next 5 years until Lil Miss starts school. At that point, when and if I decide on a career, I can return to school.
School will always be there, but my kids won’t be little forever.
I like my job now. It allows me flexibility to take care of my kids, get my kids to and from school, be here for my kids and work from home if I need to. What 9 to 5 job or unpaid internship is going to allow all that!?
Plus, now I can focus more on my blogging and dabble in other things that I’ve wanted to try without having to feel the stress and burden of going to school when I really am not happy going to school.
With all that, I have decided to become a college drop out and I am okay with that!